Soppy reflections

I know I should love you,
but by the way I act it seems I dont,
I hope this doesnt mean I wont,
cause in you I have all I could want.

I am in-decisive and lukewarm,
even though many times I have been warned,
my heart is cool, only occasionally warm,
I wallow in myself ,while my rebellion you mourn.

My focus is on the things below,
whilst you are found in the things above,
I seek pleasure in the temporal,
whilst all I could be lies in your permeance.

I dream of love found with pretty women,
but what love compares to yours,
With you I could have so much more,
Instead of I am a wanderer, lost and poor.

I lie afloat in a boat without oars,
I see the helping hand which could only be yours,
My pride causes me to rebutt your assistance,
but still you remain with unimposing persistance.

In my head I know you love me,
In my heart things are otherwise,
Maybe thats the cause of my infidelity
or just plain stupidity.

It should be all about you,
but lately its been all about me,
Move, shake and captivate me,
I dont wanna be the mess I used to be.